Update! Finally....

So tonight I went to Facebook. I rarely go to facebook. When I do, I end up spending hours reading my friends posts. Remembering good times I've had with them and wondering where the time goes. I also enjoy knowing what is going on with my friends and lift them in my prayers. Then I realized I have not blogged in a llllooooonnnnnggggg time either. So here is an update and my apology
Overall, we are doing well. We are so blessed. I am grateful!

David Alexander is in 2nd grade - his report card on Wednesday was straight A's. David's teacher told me she has to fuss at him to stop reading! lol - there is always a time and place for everything! He loves drawing and explaining things. He love all things electronic. Video games! He is so funny! His handwriting is terrible, I have started a series of test with a vision specialist. Hopefully, we can get this figured out and give him what he needs to be even more successful.

William is in Kindergarten. He is also doing very well. Reading, spelling, and cartwheels. He is so strong! A couple weeks into school he told me, "Mom, did you know there is a rule at school no cartwheels inside. I had to walk the dots (timeout) again at recess for doing cartwheels!" What amazes me is the number he can do in a row and how long he can continuously do cartwheels. He is either fun, easy going, sweet, a super help, and warm OR a professional button pusher with a temper to match his moms! Poor kid - victim of genetics!

"David the dad" has made some changes at work but they seem to have had very positive results. He is still extremely busy and has stress --but things are going very well for him.

Me - well, I am trying to keep things in perspective. Trying to put myself first, caring for my family second, and then helping others. That is not a simple task for me at all. I know that it is important. I also trying to figure out who I am and what is my purpose. I suppose that is ongoing through out any ones life. I just celebrated my 2nd year anniversary for being a breast cancer survivor. Tonight, as I have read posts and blogs my friend Abigail has posed some of the same questions that I too have been pondering. So I am not alone. My friend April expressed beautifully the joy and anger of being a cancer survivor. Happy to have gotten to this point in the path but so dam mad for the cancer pit stop. In treatment I was positive, strong, and joyful. So it seems ridiculous that past treatment and being cancer free that I have bouts of extreme sadness and anger. Terrified of recurrence, yet not trying to waste time worrying about getting cancer again. Wondering what is my purpose. The conclusion I have come to is God has great plans for me- I have survived so much in my 38 years. I have also enjoyed and loved so much in 38 years! So life is good and also so complicated.

As far as medical treatment, next week I will get nipples. Yes, when you have a bilateral mastectomy they take even the nipples. So a mushroom shape cut, a little twist, some stitches and I'll be closer to looking like all the other boobs out there. Then in December I'll get the color of my nipples tattooed on. I go to my oncologist every four months until my 5 year anniversary. Then I will go every six months.... I am so grateful that I really like my oncologist! I take my cancer inhibitor every day. As well as calcium three times daily for my osteoporosis and osteopenia. I take something for my joints. But other than that I am healthy. My mind is getting clearer and clearer. I know that if I exercise regularly, eat well and get enough sleep I do real well. If not, then I get overwhelmed, emotional, stressed out so easily - to the point where I am frozen. That is not me at all. But if I take care of myself it does not happen. So I continue to put one foot in front of the other, answer one question at a time and carry on.

I pray all is well with you and your family. Talk to you soon!
Laura